I am struggling with who I am physically anymore. I have been a wife for almost 13 years, a mom for 12, and I have taken very good care of my husband and my children, but have completely forgotten to take care of myself. Recently, I have had the pleasure of dealing with some health issues that have started to open my eyes up to the fact that I haven’t take care of me much at all. I have lost weight in the past and I have gained weight. Seems to be normal. But I am tired of being normal, and I don’t care of what “genes” I have from my parents. I want to be me. What does me look like? I have asked myself that 101 times. A healthy me looks about 54 lbs lighter then I am right now. Maybe a few more muscles would be nice. I don’t need a 6 pack, I don’t ever want to wear a two piece swimsuit again, but I DO want to feel good when I look in the mirror, I do want to feel healthy, and able to play and run and do fun things with my family. So here I am…
Praying that as I blog about this journey I will find the much needed inspiration in myself that I need to be successful. I pray that God will give me the strength to fight through my current health issues and come out on the other end stronger, healthier and happier. For myself, for my husband and for my kids.
What does this look like?!?
That is another question I have asked myself over and over. I need to work on some addictions I have. Sugar is my biggest one of those and carbs. Food is a comfort but it is the wrong comfort. I need to seek God more and food less. I have let it become in the way of my relationship with Him. I am not proud of my choices, and I know I will make those choices in the future, but I pray I can start making better choices, and start correcting my choices that I make before I make them, as I make them, or after I make them. Just start working towards a better me.
I need to start moving again. This is really hard for me because of the health issues I have been dealing with. In the last 6 plus months these issues have slowed me down, I can see myself drowning and I am trying to pull myself out! I am not looking for a quick fix, the newest thing, I am look for me. To find me on this journey.
So I would love to give up sugar. Right now in all honesty I don’t know if I can do it, but I am going to try. And I want to start moving more again. Swimming, walking, it doesn’t matter. I would like to use this space for this journey. Maybe once or twice a week updates!? Praying God will direct me on that path.
So my goals for this week are.
1. to move intentionally every day 20-30 minutes a day.
2. to figure out ways to redirect my desires for sugar.
This may be chewing gum, going for walk, praying, worshiping God, eating a snack. Who knows!
Lord, help me on this journey, Guide me to the right resources, and foods.
Ready or not!